I've heard Jason tell several people I was leaving him. That's only partly true. Summer is the only time I have the opportunity to see all of our family for more than a quick hello. The kids and I have spent pretty much the whole summer touring central Texas.
At the beginning of this week we even got the opportunity to visit Ace. He's my niece's busy all-over-the-place dog/kid. He's partial to Jessica, my niece, his mom. He runs around in a tizzy, then goes and checks in with Jessica (his master).
Funny thing happened this visit. Jessica was kind enough to share some of her duds with Hallie and I. I was able to squeeze into a pair of her jeans which I was quite happy about. I must mention that Jessica and I are similar. We've been told on numerous occasions that we look alike and that we have the same mannerisms (which also makes me proud-She's awesome!).
Well...... After one of Ace's dizzying spells, he runs up and jumps on the back of my legs, all "I love you, pick-me-up-like". I turn around to scoop him up and he "crawdad crazy crawls" backward in fast motion. Confused, and a little let-down, I went about my business.
But Ace did it again. Several times he approached me only to retreat as quickly as possible. Here's the only thing I can figure.
I'm in Jessica's house. I'm where she's supposed to be.
I look a little like Jessica, maybe his eyes are partly blocked by maltipoo fur.
Wearing her jeans, I probably even somewhat smell like her.
It's only when Ace got close that he recognized that I wasn't Jessica.
The little guy has made me think of how we humans often mistakenly approach a wrong master. Sometimes being financially secure or having a squeaky-clean image is our master. We'll make success and acceptance our master.
Being the "woman of God" that I am, I make every effort not to chase after those false Gods. Though I sometimes live for earthly things, I typically don't fool my saintly self into believing they're of God. While that's all well and good, it leads me to a problem I believe we Christians encounter.
Sometimes we wrongly run at anything that looks or smells like God.
Having an "Ace moment", we approach something that "looks like Him". Maybe we volunteer for some service project. Possibly we're involved in twelve different ministries at the church- the more God-seeming things you do, the closer to God, right? I have the decorative crosses adorning my wall and I have drawers full of church shirts. I listen to "the right music" (at least on Sundays).
Please don't misunderstand. It's not that there's anything wrong with going through the motions. The motions are often acts of worship; intimate time with God. Our church shirts and cross necklaces can be emboldened displays of a God we live for.
But don't be satisfied with anything that merely, on its own, serves as a substitute for time with the One and Only. Don't settle, believing Christian songs and t-shirts, bible studies and perfect church attendance are by themselves the "real deal"; be like Ace.
You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all of your heart. I will be found by you, declares the Lord. Jeremiah 29:13,14